It was mindblowing - I was so energized and HAPPY! I have never felt more present and more rooted in my own body before. A huge wave of gratitude and joy covered me forever - I feel so grateful, thank you Mother, thank you Father, thank you Creation! Thank you for this amazing experience to be HERE, TO EXIST, to be ALIVE! And thank you SO MUCH for the ability to birth my son and share all the gratefulness, joy, amazement, and love I am feeling of living this gorgeous lif. Thank you that I am able to pass on to him that precious experience, this amazing LIFE!!!
I felt the deep bond we all have as women, passing on this amazing gift of life from one placenta to the other, from one woman to another, throughout the years, throughout the centuries, throughout timeless and spaceless eternity. In the security of the warmth and darkness of our wombs, life is creating itself, and a new, perfect and unique human being is able to grow with such will and wisdom.
In the soft candle light of my birthing room, my husband and I were intertwined and melted with each other sharing the powerful beauty of the sacred moment. In my own journey, far away in a trance-like state, I was also completely feeling my baby and communicating with him, dancing with each contraction and channeling the urge to push into deep earthly sounds. I was emerged into a timeless space, only aware of what was going on deep within our souls.
I was working together with my baby in a birthing pool in my room, surrounded by the unconditional love and support from my husband, my sister-in-law, mother-in-law, my wonderful friend, and doctor. Suddenly, my sister-in-law tells me – do you want to touch the head?
WOW! YES! His HEAD! I love you! I love you little one, I love you so much, thanks for being here! Thank you for choosing me as your mom! HIS HEAD!
Incredible – I am touching his head! It is coming out of my beautiful vagina, out of my own body! Wow! His head, so small, so real, so beautiful! My baby is getting born! I am caressing his beautiful head for the first time! I can feel his little hairs in the warm water, so amazingly wonderful and blessed and divine! My baby is being born and the entire Universe is here right now giving birth with us!
The strongest wave so far came, and I knew that he could be born if I just push enough. I felt in an instant that I have a choice – to push and ride the wave all the way, or to wait for the next one and take it really easy and gently. Eager to meet that amazing little person who shared the same body and soul with me so intimately for 9 months, I decided to push, and collecting all the energy from each cell of my body and soul I focused that immense power opening myself as a channel for new Life to pass through. He bravely seized the opportunity and came through on a wave of pure energy, coming out into a new world like a little fish in the water.
In the moment of giving birth, I felt connected to everything, to every little cell, to each and every plant and being, to all the planets and stars, to all the Universe which was both inside and outside of me. I felt WE ARE ALL TRULY ONE.
That feeling was overwhelming, so releasing, LOVING, JOYFUL and so STRONG! I was looking at MY SON, holding him in my arms and falling in love with the brand new face and body I was seeing. He seemed so peaceful and content, so glad he was here! Hugged and loved by his mother, father, grandma, and aunt, we all started singing his song to him giving him our happy welcome.
The experience of birthing was an initiation that transformed me. With a new baby, a new mother was born too. Besides being a mother, I became aware of the amazing strength I have as a woman and the full power of life I am so privileged to be a channel of.
The magical realization that changed my birthing experience was that birth doesn’t need to be a struggle to overcome pain or achieve anything, if I don’t want it to be. All I needed to do was to stop thinking or doing anything and instead enter the temple of LOVE each of us has inside, at our very center and the source of our being. This quality of love meant total acceptance, trust, freedom, flowing, and joyful playfulness. The strength needed to birth a new life was actually pure energy and power in the form of LOVE and LIGHT. I felt as a root of Mother Earth stretching out and spreading life, so happy to share, so abundant and giving.
During the time since the birth of my son until now, I have been loving, caring for, nurturing and getting to know my growing baby, as well as myself. Honoring this sacred miracle, I am receiving the amazing gift life gave me, and discovering the true meaning of being a woman and a mother. I listen to my soul telling me things, while I am discovering and forming my visions and purpose. I listen to the beautiful and soothing song of Love and Gratitude, letting it overflow me, guide me and teach me how to love, live, inspire and share. I can hear my own inner calling stronger than ever, together with a calling of Mother Earth, to fully realize and create myself into a person who I am and who I want to be.